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{August 24, 2008}   The Dance Craze

Last night, I did something I had not done in almost 8 years. I went to a club and danced. It was the most fun I have had in a long time to be honest. I had forgotten how much fun dancing is, plus what great exercise it is. I do wish I had taken more friends with me, but alas, only one was available on such short notice.

The club we went to featured 5 different areas, 2 of them being dance floors, with all different types of music. It was really nice to do something different, and not to sit at home on a beautiful Saturday night, wondering how come I am such a homebody loser. Granted, the person who went with me would not dance with me, but it did not matter. I went and chose to go out onto the floor after staring at it, trying to get up the nerve to make my move for over an hour. I am extremely modest and shy, so it takes a long time for me to put that first foot out there. I didn’t know anyone on the dance floor, but just got out in the middle and did my own thing. No one cared if I happened to be dancing near their group or not, everyone was there just to have fun. Although, the several bachelorette parties there were quite hilarious.

Eventually, this Indian guy came up and asked if I would dance with him while I was out on the floor, so I thought, “sure, why not?” I have to give him credit that he got out there, but I am sorry, the boy just did not know how to dance. I think honestly that it would have done him good to stand back and watch others out there first. I might be being too judgemental, but simply doing only the grind against me is NOT dancing. The fact is, I do NOT like dancing THAT close to anyone to begin with… I just like to dance near someone. We don’t have to be physically touching to be dancing together.

I know a lot of women go to clubs, and simply use men to buy them drinks. I am not one of those women. After dancing and getting hot and sweaty, the Indian guy decided he needed to offer to buy me drinks (alcoholic or not) when I attempted to leave the floor. I refused the offer because to me, that is just a bit rude to do that to someone you do not plan on dancing exclusively the night away with. I kept trying to get away from him on the dance floor, but he just would not let go..then kept asking for my phone number. That means the number he got.. was the wrong area code LOL. I know… that seems mean, but I do NOT give out my phone number to people I do not know well. Times are too dangerous to do so right now. Well, it must have turned out that he was there with a guy friend, because the guy friend kept trying to cut in, and he wouldn’t allow for it. So when I tried to leave the dance floor, I nearly get mauled by this guy’s friend because he wants to buy me drinks or dance. He was simply way too, over-eager and scared me. So I left that dance room for another room so I could sit, cool-off and not be bothered by them for a while.

After sitting and watching people have a blast on another dance floor, I decided to go see how things went with the other person who came with me. As I attempt to head that way, this other guy runs up and asks me to dance with him. By this time, I am simply wiped out and my shoes are KILLING me! I politely turned him down, so he insisted on buying me a soda or whatever I wanted. I politely declined, and the man grabbed my arm and tried to drag me to the other dance room to dance with him. I firmly insisted NO, and finally convince him to leave me be. After milling about because I could not find my friend that came with him.. turns out he had found some cute girls to dance with, no matter that he refused my multiple offers. I will not make the mistake to ever ask him again to dance because obviously, I am once again, an embarassment to him apparently, not being cute enough, etc.

Once I discovered him dancing, I just left for the karaoke bar room because drunk people singing is hilarious. At this point, the earlier guys had been forgotten…to my mistake. I decide to go back to the dance floor through an alternative door..and there is the last guy I had turned down. He insisted on my phone number as well, so he also got the wrong number, dragged me back into the karaoke bar-room. When I say dragged, I literally mean dragged. At this point, he proceeded to tell me his life, where he was from, why he was living there, that he has four motorcycles, that he needs to buy me a drink because I am really very beautiful..etc. Did I mention just how DRUNK this guy was? He simply did not understand, “no, no thank you, I am fine, NO.” Hanging all over me with your arms on me, and trying to kiss on me just does NOT cut it. Plus, he was very antsy about the cops, which I informed him I had many that I was friends with. It took over half an hour to get away from this creep. When I found my friend I came with, I told him it was time to leave, and I meant NOW. I just told him a drunk creep was bothering me and would not leave me be, so it was time to go.

On the drive back home, I got accused of not being okay, that something was bothering me. Was something bothering me? No, not really. I was simply tired and sleepy. You can only dance so many hours straight and not be worn out. I suppose I really was hurt that he would not dance with me, but by this time, I was not surprised, and it was for my own good that I did not. But, I will never let him know that it bothered me, I made that decision a while back to never let him in on my feelings again because he had previously, literally, broken my heart. The part of me he hurt, I will not let return, and that is all I will say about it.

I will probably go dancing again very soon..maybe as soon as Tuesday night. There is a local place that gives free salsa lessons on Tuesday nights from 9-10pm. I think it could be a blast, plus the change up in routine and exercise that I am craving.



Well, I have not wrote all that much this summer. Honestly, I have been exercising a lot, and making myself study for the PCAT. When I have written, it has been in a “Debbie Downer” type of mood. Although, I wouldn’t say that I am out of that mode, but I can say, I have gone totally emotionless, which is where I need to be right now.. and now for other things.

I like spring and summer in Texas, but sometimes, the heat is just too danged much. It has been 107 for over a week here with high humidities (that is approximately 41.1 degrees Celsius in metric terms). We keep getting placed under orange/red zone days, along with the National Weather Service placing us under extreme heat advisories. I have seen more people get ill in the last couple of weeks than in a while. Mostly, it is due to them doing over-strenous work and not drinking enough water. If you have never lived in Texas, then you do not understand what I mean by it being hotter than hell here.

When it is this hot outside, you don’t go and find the closest parking place, no, you go and find the shadiest, and hope for the best. The heat can get hot enough here that your rearview windows fall off the windshield, or the side windows burst. I can honestly say, if you live in this part of Texas, NEVER ever buy a car with leather or vinyl seats. That is just asking for trouble because people actually get BURNED by them. Speaking of burns, yes you really can fry an egg on the sidewalk.. I have seen it done before..though not in a while. Also, it is so hot outside, kids cannot go to the playgrounds without getting 3rd degree burns from the hot playground equipment. The ER’s are full of cases of burned children right now. In fact, I can tell you that I used to do marching band. I still play my trumpet for my own enjoyment, but I marched with a college marching band.

We always started in August..the hottest part of the year. The place we practiced was a marked off asphalt/black-top parking lot type area. The first year I marched with them, it was extremely hot, a bit worse than now. We practiced Monday, Wednesday, and Fridays from 1-3pm.. yes the hottest part of the day, Tuesday evenings and Saturdays in half-uniform before the games. We were forbidden to drink sodas or to have milk products during marching season. Why you ask? Dehydration, stomach cramps, etc. When it is this hot outside, milk will sour in your stomach..not kidding. Although, we were made to take frequent breaks and drink plently of gatorade. That stuff really does help, believe it or not..because when it is this hot outside, I promise, you’re clothes become wringing-wet with sweat. The first sign that you get of dehydration/over-heating is light-headedness. Then, you feel like your head is actually cold, and at this point, I suggest finding a shady spot to sit, because it will not be but a moment or two later when you pass out. That summer, I can say we marched in 114 degree fahrenheit heat..and the asphalt was hot enough to burn your feet THROUGH your tennis shoes. Most of our shoes ended up with big scorched marks or holes in the bottom because they melted. I promise I am not exaggerating in the least little bit. Now onto more stuff..

So you suggest, hopping into the swimming pool right? WRONG! When it has been this hot outside for this long, the water is no longer cool, but more like a tepid, warm bath. Who needs hot tubs when you have the sun? LOL. Also, there has been a HUGE outbreak of a parasite call Crypto. For more on Crypto, go to http://www.cdc.gov/healthyswimming/cryptofacts.htm. It is such a nasty little bugger. It started with a little girl going swimming and her parents not using swim diapers on her. Gross I know, but we have to educate people better. She then infected others swimming at the public pool..and they have in turn, passed it into other public pools. Now, there is a huge outbreak of it, and although the pools keep shutting down to hyperchlorinate, it just doesn’t kill it if those infected keep coming back for more. One public pool has started using UV light to cleanse their pools everynight. Apparently, the Crypto isn’t immune to UV light like it has possibly become to Chlorine. Besides that, swimming pools under so much heat breed all sorts of wonderful little critters right now. The best time is to swim late in the evening or early mornings before the water gets super heated. Then there are the lakes, ponds, etc.. During this time of year, we seldom get rain, so the water gets stagnant..and vwalla, you have another germ infested pool of water, and with water restrictions in place, you can forget the sprinkler.

So what else to do? Not much.. a good snow cone helps for a small amount of time, but just drinking a cool glass of water or iced tea is about it for now.



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