This past week at work was like a waking nightmare. I work in a pharmacy that started up a $4 generic program. It has simply brought in soo many new customers, making things busier than usual. I don’t mind the program, in fact, I am for it. It especially helps out the elderly because it doesn’t bill their insurance, and even if they end up in the medigap, they can still afford their maintenance medications that are on the list..well at least hopefully they can.

But that wasn’t the only thing that made my life stressful. A co-worker of mine, ..that I will refer to as M, really angered me. He doesn’t want to wait on customers at the register, he doesn’t want to re-check the prescriptions (a mandatory 24 audit, as it is called), he doesn’t want to take prescriptions at the drop off, he doesn’t want to answer the phone..etc. I think you see where I am headed with this. He only likes to count pills to put in the prescription bottles..that’s it, and doesn’t double count the controlled substances like is mandated, although he says he does.

Well, the yearly reviews came around, and he scored very poorly from what I understand. He’s such a sour person that he blamed his scores on me, telling our other co-workers than I am just evil and that karma will get me because of what I have done to him. I do what I am supposed to do at work..no complaint, just work. I really thought he was my friend, but learned otherwise this past week. Another co-worker, W, also informed me that he tried to find a copy of my review in my personnel file, and was angered when he couldn’t find it, but found everyone else’s copies of their reviews, M told other co-workers what others earned

The same co-worker, W, that told me he had searched for my file, likes to instigate problems. M actually did do an audit the way he was supposed to the other day. Usually, he’s told me in the past, he just throws it in the file drawer with his name on it, saying it’s checked off and finished. So W, made the comment that we’d misfilled something and I had typed it, and that M made a huge deal about it because he was the one who found it. I DO care when I make a mistake, although it was the right drug, wrong strength, I still am my own worst critic. I said that I was happy he actually caught it, but I was surprised he actually checked the scripts. Unbeknown to me, W, immediately texted M and said I was talking bad about him. I have no idea what all W told him, but why do people have to just start stuff? Why even tell either one of us what the other does? Why does W blame others when she was the one actually that started and KEPT talking bad about M.

I totally dislike problem instigators. I also totally dislike two-faced people. I was really hurt to know that for the second time, M, had talked and tried to spread crap about me. I try to follow the rule, “fool me once, shame on you; fool me twice, shame on me.” I don’t give people 3 strikes you are out, you only get 2 shots. It makes me question all the times we hung out outside of work. Was it because no one else was available? and was I just the left-over? I don’t hear people so well upclose, I have one ruptured ear drum that will never close-up and another one with so much scar tissue, it barely vibrates..ear problems are inherited from my dad’s side of the family.. but I CAN hear things spoken far away from me in soft tones. Go figure, so it continually hurt me last week to hear M whispering bad stuff about me last week especially since he thinks I can’t hear what he’s saying. Everyone except W is ignoring it, but that still doesn’t mean it doesn’t hurt. To have your trust and friendship betrayed and drug through the mud is just not a good feeling. And finding new friends is easier said than done.

A good friend of mine, CS, told me to leave M alone and not to worry about him at all. That I don’t need people like that, but that I did need to find new friends to hang out with because this is a lonely world. That I need to find friends that have schedules closer to mine so I could actually hang out with them. After our conversation, it also made me realize that I am not sure CS has feelings other than friendship for me anymore. So, maybe he’s right, I should just let people go..